I was raised not to discuss money. My friends and I never discussed money, we just all complained about not having any. We complained about all our problems but never once would we discuss how to best resolve them. Why is that? Some say misery loves company. I truly agree. I decided that I didn't want to complain anymore, that I was going to become self reliant and solve my own issues rather than throw pity parties for myself.
I immediately felt what it was like to become an outsider. I soon became the uninvited guest to pity parties because I had no pity. I would say things to my friends like "Come on! Let's solve our own problems we don't need to wait for people to define us and/or what we stand for!" I thought I was doing something good, however I suddenly realized that I was being shunned and treated as if I were an outsider. I thought these were my friends! I thought they wanted to change as well! I thought they hated their problems as much as I hated mine. I thought we all wanted solutions. Silly me. I was left alone, and confused.
I began to read books that empowered me to change who I was so that I could become the person I always wanted to be. I began to search for a new crowd to call friends. People with a mind like mine. I found an organization that helped people who wanted to change their mindset and break the curse of generational poverty. They called themselves the M.A.D. Team and I wanted to join. So I did, and much to my surprise I became like Alice in Wonderland! I tumbled into a whole new realm of life, and found myself chasing a white rabbit with a time piece!!
I was surrounded by successful business people. Beaming with confidence and savvy in their interpersonal and sales skills but most importantly they were completely in touch with reality. --My White Rabbit. This was exactly what I wanted for myself. At any rate, just like Alice and the White Rabbit I didn't have it and I couldn't quite catch it. Everyone within this organization expressed a genuine concern for my well being. This was odd to me. I could not understand it because I was not used to it. I decided that if I was going to stay here I would have to become a whole new person.
I was scared and faced with the reality that I didn't have it together as much as I wanted to believe I did. I wondered how long it would take for me to get to the place where I initially thought I already was. --The ticking time piece. I didn't feel prepared to play in this league. My coach held my hand, and assured me that I would be fine once I refined my skills and learned how and when to used them. It took some time, but I did catch that White Rabbit with the time piece, and interestingly enough I did it in less time than I anticipated!
I eventually woke up, just as Alice did. I faced reality. My reality, and discovered that I am no longer afraid. My confidence in my abilities has grown. I am ready to get off the bench and play with my team. I am ready to solve my problems and those of others who also dream of solutions. I'm ready to face the people that thought I would not succeed as well as those that have been waiting patiently for me to fail. I'm ready to discuss the nitty gritty. I'm ready to discuss money. Investments, management, procurement, securement, charitable donations and the list goes on. I read somewhere, that the best way to defeat fear is to face it, I truly agree.
